I love Oprah, I can watch her for days, and today, after revisiting clips of her show on Youtube (again) I came to the one which focused on her "AHA" moments...... Moments in her life where she learnt a lesson that changed everything..... A lesson that if she could she'd go back and tell her younger self.
My fav has to be -
Be prepared for how long change might take and how hard it will be.
Miss Oprah got me thinking about my life and what I was like when I was younger. I was a lot different back then. In my teens I thought the world revolved around me and that I knew everything...... Boy how wrong was I because at the start of my twenties I descended into the darkest period of my life where I would stay for nearly a decade..... In those years I lost everything including who I thought I was.
Luckily, through some pretty hard work on my part, good people around me and a little sprirutal intervention I managed to come out the other end better that I went in. I had managed to use my pain as the foundation of my counselling training and graduated as fully qualified Therapist which now I truly believe to be my purpose in life ..... None of which I could have done without my struggles with mental health.
This is my dilemma though..... I've only managed to find my purpose because of the pain I went through and without it I wouldn't be here so what would I tell my younger self? Would I save myself from the pain knowing that I would end up here?
Well.....However complex that answer is, if I had to pick a side..... yes or no? I'd have to send myself down the same path again knowing full well the trauma I would face...... And I'm OK with that.
I've found peace with my pain and in a very strange way my struggles have been both a blessing and a curse.